Open up.

Life changes so rapidly. We are in one place and time seems to be dragging on and then we are somewhere else all of the sudden. Hang on and enjoy the ride. Keep your eyes open so you don't miss anything. Learn from the "great times" and the "trying times." Open your heart to receive the lessons of life- easy and tough. This will all be over before you know it.

when is enough?

We sit around and daydream about more, enough, or something else. We are all we ever really need. We hear opinions and allow them mold us or destroy us, why do we give them so much power? We seek money, love, peace and attention when we already are the most important thing in our own world. We are the wealth, we are the abundant source of love and infinite fountain of peace. It is these opinions in conjunction with our ego that fogs the lens of our mind's eye, clouding our judgement and sending us to external comfort. It is here that we get lost, hiking deeper into book after book, shopping spree after shopping spree, class after class or from comfort food to comfort food. When it gets so cloudy life is jaded and dull. There is no attention outward that is of any positive notion because there is no attention inward. We waste days, weeks, and months sprinting around in avoidance of what is really going on. We turn off our ability to hear. To speak. And at the unfortunate expense of ourselves and others our innate ability to love is ceased and guarded. We are just too lazy and scared to look inside to truly see what is going on. We speak to ourselves in the harsh tones of lectures and criticisms; screaming that we are never enough and can't do anything right. When is enough enough when we have the mindset that there could always be more?? Soften. Speak kindly to yourself. You are everything that you have been seeking for so long.

Backflips

Here I am teetering on the edge of effort and surrender. I am being tested quite a bit as of recently. I know it is good for me but there is that little, ok rather LOUD voice in my head screaming at me to resist. Welcome to the ego. I stretch my hips and they get tight again. I rinse my shoulders and they get sore again. I meditate, but my mind once again entertains itself with thought after tension enhancing thought. When did my ego get so big?! I don't remember the incessant chatter being so loud. Now I am questioning if I am taking on too much or just taking everything way too seriously. But if I don't take it seriously, will it ever get accomplished? Am I complaining right now?

So- here I sit wondering what to do next. Practice, meditate, or work more.....